new site

check out my new (improved) blog:

http://fleeting.blogsome.com

shamelessly ripped from my cousin Kate's blog (http://praxical.blogsome.com):

What number are you?

i do find it amazing how accurate some of these quizzes are....so here's another:

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice. You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

http://www.blogthings.com/whatsortofartistshouldyoubequiz/

i never would have guessed.

intellectual intercourse

when it comes to conversation, who is your significant other?  is it the person with whom you're romantically entangled, or a person (or persons) whose intimate connection(s) with you stems from another source?

as i mentally prepare myself for re-location, i find myself wondering who i will miss the most.  is it my boyfriend, my sister, or someone else - someone whose existance i may currently take for granted, but will feel the loss of once he or she (or they) are no longer available?  if so, what is it about that emotional and psychological connection that is so necessary to me?  and if it's not my romantic interest, why not?  shouldn't that particular relationship be broad and profound enough to encompass - or at least explore - my range of needs and desires?  or am i - are we - as individuals - too complex to be satisfied by a monogamous mental match-up?

how often do we find ourselves carrying on conversations that somewhere include, "i just can't talk to [my significant other] about this..." or "[he or she] isn't interested or wouldn't understand this about me..." or even, "it's so much easier to communicate these things to you...."  why, even when our romantic relationships seem to be going well, do we still seek out the attention and interest of others?  is it acceptable and healthy to find different "companions" for different facets of ourselves, or is just a subtle way of cheating - of refusing to commit to one person to fulfill our intellectual needs?  of course, we are social creatures and are capable of - and meant to have - multiple relationships of varying degrees of intimacy, none of which negate the validity of romantic involvement.  but when those relationships foster a level of intimacy, regardless of the connective subject matter, that approaches, equals, or exceeds the level of intimacy of our romantic involvement, how do we differentiate between the two?  at some point, won't we be at least in some danger of "crossing the streams" of consciousness that separate those relationships?  how do we preserve the intimacy and singularity of a romantic relationship while fostering similar psychological infrastructures in others?  in short, in pursuing close intellectual relationships with multiple individuals, are we being ideologically promiscuous?

time signatures

so here it is (what appears to be) two years later, and i've finally been stung into pseudo-literary verbosity by a congratulatory comment for having the longest-abandoned xanga....

i think that if i wrote more often two things would happen:  first, i'd feel better and less stressed-out about scheduling issues and life-changing decisions, and second, i'd lose all my friends, having finally and irrevokably confirmed that my brain contains far too many syllables and far too few thoughts actually worth sharing.  maybe not.  but if you notice a few spelling errors here and there, it's because i'm typing with my fingers crossed.

k, so i haven't written much lately.    since finals were just over thursday, i've only recently started breathing again.  it's good to breathe.  i enjoy it.  i have no earthly idea what my grades will be this semester - but the piano performances improved, so that's all that really matters.  and just for the record, i never thought i'd be able to say that about my *grades*.

i'm in the process of packing up and setting the apartment straight so i can go home tomorrow.  i spent some time Christmas shopping this afternoon - very therapeudic - and spent more money than i thought i had.  thank goodness for credit cards.  heheheh.

only one downside to the afternoon; when i talked to a male friend of mine.  i called to ask him a couple of questions, just random information that i needed.  however, since he'd suggested earlier this week that we "hang out" this afternoon, he thought that's what i was calling about, and immediately went through the list of things he was doing so i'd know that he was unavailable.  nothing like a little pre-emptive rejection.

i think it's good that i'm not going to see him for a while.  and i think it's good that i'm going home with no real plans for this break.  i need to just chill and do cross-stitch.